On the verge

I am not feeling well inside, physically and emotionally. I hope i can still be patient and go thru this test with lots of willpower. I just feel like breaking apart. It's been really stressful answering questions from people about my current idle status, i am trying, i am. Most days i just feel so guilty. For not being worthy, other days i feel useless, like a bump.

I want to stand on my own, please, soon, and grab someone to buy a hdb flat with me.